What does it feels like ? The "transition" is what they call it. Trasition. Why call it that? Making it sound exciting......but this is no where near exciting. The emotion is dark. Okk no more poetic talk. No back story, straight to it.
I picked Carrol up this morning, dooming the emotions I knew were coming. Being so close but still outside the family, I've avoided feeling the sadness and hurt that comes along with eminent passing........
10:13 Carrol and Uncle Johnny just went down to smoke, in front of the "no smoking" signs posted.....
Joey and Mike arrive...sitting in the same room with either make me uncomforted. No matter how untrue, I feel like there's a secret and everyone knows it but everyone is acting like it doesn't exist....the secret being the.....ok I'm not even ready to devulge our not so secret secret.
Funny how.....I say that way to much, I never mean funny haha, but usually I mean ironic or unfortunate. Like, its funny how some one who has lived a life that my not be the "norm" or "idealistic" but her soul was, well, you would have to meet her to know. Like a beautiful flower, a Poppy ofcourse ;) , and a firecracker all in one.
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