What time is it.....

Today Carrol seems even more intent on getting an exact date as to when T will pass. I wish the doctors would stop giving her these answers like they EVERYTHING! They do not. No one does. And knowing when some is going pass is not one of those things that no one can't know. I know that she is just exhausted from the worrie and the agony of losing her best friend, her mother, her sister....and she's just wants all the pain for everyone to stop, the pain that T may be in, and the pain of herself and  everyone that stands at her bedside, longing for the woman in the distant memory in their head.
The sight of her today looked more peaceful. I felt an energy fom her today. Like a she's is half with us and half with well u know,  like she's holding on for something or someone... I've been wanting to tell he somthing but I want to tell her alone, just me and T. I wanna tell her that ....well that'll be between me and her :)..
So I just got a fb message from Damian. I was wondering today if anyone told him......I mean he is a long standing family friend....idk I just thought he would want to know...he didn't know....he said he gonna go up there.
Idk how I feel about this my sadness seems to stem from more than just the absence of a wonderful person to have around during out path in life, its more of the butterfly effect I feel it may have on those who love her....not ready for details I cried enough today...death fuckin sucks, but then again so does life sometimes....